My Quest for Peace - Day 89

I struggle with staying focused and not multi-tasking.  Being bi-polar I have a million things running at any given time in my head and it is a struggle to just follow one thought without being distracted by others.  Throughout my life I have learned to follow several at the same time (although this has caused me to not remember lots of things) but it gave me some unique abilities in my old career.  As an IT professional it was a wonderful ability - something goes wrong and my mind could simultaneously follow several possible solutions to their conclusion and I was able to determine the best course.  I enjoyed the benefits.

The negatives though is I struggle to pay attention to a movie and remember it - I joke that I can pick up a book or movie and it will always be new to me even if I have read it or watched it before.  As I am changing careers to become a therapist - I am working hard on focusing myself even more.  I have taken steps to doing that by putting my laptop in my office and actually watching a movie and trying not to focus on anything else but the movie or my interaction with those around me about the movie. 

I chose not to get a smart phone so I am not distracted and I can pay attention to those around me without the temptation of a distraction.  This is something I probably will have to work on my entire life but I am finding it much more fulfilling to enjoy the focus and accomplishment of finishing a task and not having so many things hanging out there not getting done.

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