Lughnasadh - Lammas - First Harvest
Lughnasadh (pronounced LOO-nə-sə; Irish: Lúnasa; Scottish Gaelic: Lùnastal; Manx: Luanistyn) is a traditional Gaelic holiday celebrated on 1 August in the northern hemisphere and 1 February in the southern. It originated as a harvest festival, corresponding to the Welsh Calan Awst and the English Lammas. It is also known as Lammas or the First Harvest.
For me this a time of reception. A time when you get to "receive" the fruits of your harvest from the seeds you planted and tended this year.
Quick note since I have not written about any other sabbats as of yet:
Samhain - October 31/November 1 - Death and Decay - end\beginning new year
Yule\Winter Solstice - around December 22nd - transformation
Imbolc - Around February 1st - intention
Spring Equinox - around March 21st - creation
Beltane - May 1st - Expression
Summer Solstice - around June 21st - Manifestation
Lughnasadh\Lammas - August 1st - reception
Autumn Equinox - around September 21st - preparation
This year I had only three of seeds of intention that I planted. 1. To continue to support my daughter in every way I could to help her healing. 2. To support my husband during his lower surgeries. 3. To continue towards becoming a therapist working with families struggling with RAD.
Well this year it is very hard to feel like I am receiving any fruits of my labor even though I know they are there.
1. I had to give custody of my daughter to CPS\DHCP (I still have parental rights) and instead I have had to focus on advocating for her and learning to be the best mom possible to her right now even though it is hard. I am beginning to see that giving up custody was the right thing to do as she will be going to a wonderful place that has equine therapy, canine therapy, and many other therapeutic interventions and it will be out of state. It will give her more resources than I ever could on my own and hopefully she will make the choice to make use of them and start to heal. I am also learning that to be the best mom I can be to her means that I have to let her learn her own lessons at her own pace.
2. I am supporting my hubby through all of his lower surgeries. It is hard and is teaching a lot to me emotionally and mentally that I didn't know I didn't know. We have grown closer and we appreciate each other a lot more. Also because of his pain due to the surgeries we are having to learn other ways of bonding and closeness than sex.
3. I have to say that I got distracted and frustrated with my work to become a therapist and really did not keep my focus on making my intention grow. I am starting to now and hopefully I will start the process and if not I have to believe it was meant to be that this year I focus on my own family struggling with RAD and my husband's well being and that I needed the energy from supporting others.
One thing I do know is I have to get back into my spirituality to keep me going in the right direction. October of last year I made the mistake of going down the wrong path and nurturing a goal that was not positive for me. I took a job for purely financial reasons that took me away from being able to work as a therapist and despite many warning signs and many negative feelings I kept focusing and spending energy on it. It took me away from the path I was supposed to be on. Thankfully, I believe the Goddess decided to redirect me the hard way and I lost that job just in time to focus on my daughter and the court system and my husband and his surgery. I mean really it is amazing - I lost my job on February 10th, my court date for my daughter was February 23rd and my hubby and I had to drive to AZ for his surgery on February 28th. When I got back and could focus on other things - I was hit with some more issues from that job - making me realize - I need to follow my heart and soul and not panic as easily and just grab onto something that gives me a horrible feeling (I mean that horrible knot in your gut feeling).
My hubby has since gotten a raise at his job. I am focusing on being a "domestic goddess" while looking for the opportunity that will lead me on my correct path.
So sometimes I think the harvest also shows things that have grown that you might not have realized you planted. I have learned and grown a lot so far this year. Maybe being the mom, wife and therapist I want to be needed to have those lessons learned. I really want to continue learning and walking the path that I feel I am called to go down.
This year is special as in my location the Full Moon also falls on Lughnasadh which makes everything I am harvesting and working on have more power.
I can harness some of the Green Corn Moon's (August's Full Moon) fiery energy for my ritual work. This will be a good time to focus on my spiritual and physical health. It's the time to harvest what I can now to put aside for later use. This is the time to determine what sacrifices can I should make today that will benefit my seeds of intention further down the road.
Thank you Mother Earth and Father Sun for this harvest and I will continue to share this harvest with all of those around me.