Friday, October 18, 2013
The Hunter's or Harvest Full Moon is the first full moon after Mabon (Autumn Equinox).
The Hunter's Full Moon is named because the full moon give light to hunters tracking their prey before the cold winter settles in. They are able to stock up on the protein they will need to make it through the winter.
I myself am doing that in a manner of speaking. I went to the conference to "stock up" on more learning material and to socialize before the cold settles in and we look inward and do less outside socializing and more family bonding. I have started setting up my new office and making sure I have everything I need to do therapy.
I find this a good time to seek out that which you will need in order to work within yourself during the dark time of the year the time of reflection and integration of new ideas and work from the previous year. I am working on writing and organizing so that I can continue to work on myself.
I am also starting again on walking and getting myself healthier so I will do better during the cold weather.
Sunday, September 22, 2013
The last several years I have been away from home on Mabon. This year is the same - I am at the ATTACh Conference and this year it is in San Antonio, Texas.
I find it interesting that my harvest always seems to fall when I am at the conference. That is not to say I am not harvesting a lot of things. Quite the opposite. This year has been really interesting. A few weeks ago I got involved with a small group of people who saw some things we felt were wrong and we got together and reached out to the rest of the membership. At the board meeting this weekend, they listened to our voice and we exacted change! I also got calls from a few potential clients so I feel like I am really reaping the fruits of my labors! I am really thrilled to be living life this way - by the wheel - it just works so much better for me.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
The fruits of my labor are really coming true.
Also I met a wonderful artist who creates this amazing Celtic Art to help calm and focus.
It can help with OCD, Anxiety, ADHD and just a way to meditate easier.
Please visit her work at http://www.celticarttherapy.com/
Sunday, September 1, 2013
I feel like I have waited my whole life for this - For a point in time that everything seems to be getting better. Sure I have had one thing here or there that was going right - but usually it just helped me get through something else that was going wrong.
So let me take a moment and share with you things that are going right:
My hubby and I - Still happily and deeply in love. October 31st will make our 5 year anniversary! And December 4th will make 7 years together! The picture to my left is a little gift he gave me for no real reason. As customary it has several meanings. I have been reading the Mistborn series and I told him that when some of the characters burn pewter for a long time and then stop - they are really tired - it is called "pewter dragging" so he got me a "pewter dragon". Amethyst is my favorite stone and I love dragons and their energy. As usual he knows me so well and continues to show me how much he loves me in so many different and unique ways.
The most surprising positive thing is my daughter. After struggling with her behaviors for years, and trying for nearly 2 years to take her medications reliably - on her own she decided to go back on Abilify and oh my goddess - what a difference. She got to her out of state placement just under a year ago. For 10+ months she pretty much stayed on the lowest level at the group home - having stand offs, trying to run, arguing and refusing to do the program - well - once she started Abilify her behaviors got better and she is now on Level 2 - holding a part time job, on the volley ball team and doing well in her 8 classes. She is 5 months from turning 18 and I actually have hope for her future - I mean real hope not that mom hope that every mom hopes for the best - this time I really think she has a real chance and a really good future. The best part is - I loving having my daughter back - talking to her - being able to discuss things and actually go deep into discussion without fear.
My own mental health - It was actually a bit weird - so many things going well - hardly any drama - I actually struggled for a little bit with that. I have spent 13+ years dealing with drama. Mostly my daughter and her needs but sometimes my son or my partner. I actually fell into a depression when that drama was removed - I was so used to living on the adrenaline of drama, I really struggled to find my energy when it wasn't being triggered. I finally found it - and my home office is set up, my home feels like home and this is my every day view from my home office. For the first time in a long time I feel like I have my mental health. I am not manic and I am not depressed. I am learning how to live in the middle.
So for a moment I am just really happy to be who I am, where I am at this moment.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
What a beautiful Full Moon tonight. (not the picture above - I don't have a good night camera). It is not actually blue but for the first time in awhile we had a nice clear sky where I live.
I wrote about Blue Moons in a post last year - located here.
This year it is a blue moon because there are 4 full moons between the Summer Solstice and the Fall Equinox (1 season). The 3rd Moon if there are 4 moons in a season is a Blue Moon.
You can find an interesting article here.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Time goes so fast. It is now Lughnasadh. We celebrate together as we all work to bring in the harvest. It is kind of like a work party and that is what is happening in my life right now. I am working hard with my son to get himself organized and learn life skills so he can be successful in college. I am proud of my daughter and working with her towards her first positive steps towards independence. I am trying new things and seriously considering a 2nd job in the mental health field to help with our income. I am soon going to start allergy shots as I have made peace with living where I am for awhile longer. I still have a lot of work to do but I am really beginning to see things come to fruition. This year has been full of ups and downs but we (my family) has stuck together and we are making progress on our goals.
Monday, July 22, 2013
Not a lot of time yet to enjoy our bounty as we still have a lot to do - but we are starting to see what our hard work has given us. For me, I am enjoying my son's successes - starting to see some positive changes with my daughter. Coming up with more ideas for my practice and starting to feel better about the direction of my health. I am try to only look at this moment and near future and not obsess about the far future.