Monday, July 27, 2015

Taking care of my health

So a couple of months ago I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes.  The worst part is my body seems to be producing the glucose that I am not able to deal with.  I am now on an extremely low-carb diet - under 50 grams of carbs a day (at least most days).  I also just a couple weeks ago bought a fit-bit to try to push myself to increase my exercise.  I have had to struggle to learn how to not emotionally eat.  I did not realize how much food was a comfort.  In the middle of the night I often have panic attacks and before I would get up and eat something - now I struggle to find healthier options.

I am starting to learn how to cook more interesting food low carb so that is good.  Trying new things and organizing my life.  I also like Just Dance 2 on the wii as the weather is so hot here that is really my only easy way to exercise inside.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Missing my daughter

Everyday I think of her.  Everyday I hope and pray that she will realize the destructive path she is on and ask for help to make changes.  She is smart, creative, stubborn (like her mom), beautiful and always my precious daughter.  I wish I could help her, but every time I do it is just enabling.  I wish I could hold her and keep her safe - but every time I do she hurts me.  She is a beautiful rose with thorns.  My heart aches for my daughter.  She is so hurt she cannot believe in herself.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Full Hay Moon

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The Full Hay Moon is also sometimes called Thunder Moon.  It is the first moon after the Summer Solstice.  As the name implies it is when we can harvest hay.  At this time it is a good to start focusing on what we will do with our harvest and how best to harvest the fruits of our labor.  That last sentence may seem backwards but you must first know what you want to do with your fruits  - to know how to harvest.  For example if something did not work out like you wanted, it might be best to learn from it and use it as fertilizer for the next set of crops.  Maybe the fruit just wasn't so sweet so maybe you will dry it instead of canning it.  This lets you know how you will go about harvesting it.


This year I am on my cruise during this full moon.  The full moon is so beautiful upon the ocean.  I am having time to think and to start figuring out what and how I want to do with my career, my future and path.  I am starting to look for small little jobs to help supplement my income to assist with being able to do more with my life.  The most important thing though is I am learning that I need to enjoy my life with my hubby.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Litha - Summer Solstice - The Beginning of Summer 2016

Litha - Summer Solstice - The Beginning of summer.  This is the longest day of the year and now the nights will lengthen.  This is a time of manifestation.  We are seeing what the hard work on our intentions look like.

This year my intentions are:
1.  To walk more
So found out no surgery but the injury will take awhile to heal.  Again told be nice to it - don't walk so much - wear protective shoes.  But at least no surgery and it will get better.

2.  To make sure I do self-care.
In a couple of weeks we are going on a cruise to Alaska!  This will be major self care - I need this and I hope it helps my hubby too.

3.  To pass my licensing exams
ACCOMPLISHED!!!  I passed both exams, and my license was issued on April 21!

4.  To find a way to be supportive of my daughter and not enable her.
After trying to help her into a sober living environment and failing - I have limited my interactions to the basic cheer-leading once in awhile.  It hurts to see her throw her life away but I know she has to make the changes herself.

5.  To continue to follow the path the Goddess has put in front of me especially when it comes to being a therapist.
I have felt pulled to open up my practice to working with transgender youth.  I am now working to become a Gender Specialist and focus on helping transgender youth and their families.  I am also becoming more myself and working with clients from where i feel is right rather than a particular way.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Full Strawberry Moon

Full Strawberry Moon is also called Rose Moon or Flower Moon.  Called the Full Strawberry Moon in our area because the strawberries are ready to be picked.  It is one of the first harvests of the year.  Like strawberries we start to see the fruits of our labor.  This is a good time to focus on the seedlings that have started to really grow.

In my personal life, this year, my hubby and I are going on a cruise at the end of this month.  It is like finally things are falling into place.  I am excited to spend time with my hubby in a cool and natural environment.  Feels like we are getting our first harvest of many years.

Monday, May 4, 2015

Full Milk Moon

It is often called the Milk Moon because baby goats and calves have just started to be born so cow and goat milk is plentiful.   It is a time when planting is the main focus and birth and new life is plentiful.

I am taking this time to start really focusing on MY OWN practice - I am now licensed so now I can nurture and let my practice grow.

I am also enjoying my new life with adult children and enjoying nurturing the next phase of my marriage

Friday, May 1, 2015

Beltane 2015

Beltane is a time of Expression - it is time to express your intentions.  You have planned and created and now it is time to really work on your intentions.  This year I am seeing the possibilities of my new practice/career and need to keep working on it to make it thrive.

My Seeds of Intent
1.  To walk more
I am so very frustrated with this seed - early February I hurt my foot and my doctors are telling me to not walk on it.  I may even have surgery on it.

2.  To make sure I do self-care.
I am working on this.  I am taking more time for myself and choosing to disconnect from toxic people.  I took it easy while I was studying and made sure to have fun.

3.  To pass my licensing exams
ACCOMPLISHED!!!  I passed both exams, and my license was issued on April 21!

4.  To find a way to be supportive of my daughter and not enable her.
After trying to help her into a sober living environment and failing - I have limited my interactions to the basic cheer-leading once in awhile.  It hurts to see her throw her life away but I know she has to make the changes herself.

5.  To continue to follow the path the Goddess has put in front of me especially when it comes to being a therapist.
I have felt pulled to open up my practice to working with transgender youth.  I am now working to become a Gender Specialist and focus on helping transgender youth and their families.

So many changes and exciting things happening, I look forward to see what the rest of the year brings!