My Quest for Peace - Day 45

I am afraid of trusting.  This makes me get angry or frustrated when things do not go my way or I feel out of control because if I feel like I am out of control, I am afraid to trust how things will work out.  I guess simply put I am afraid of the unknown which is why I am afraid of trusting that things will work out or will be ok because then I am out of my comfort zone of knowing what will happen.

I have been working on this for sometime and making progress, my anger is now often just frustration or anxiousness and I am trying to learn to go with the flow but it is very hard for me.

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