Lady Heather's Domain: My life in a Nutshell

It is often called the Milk Moon because baby goats and calves have just started to be born so cow and goat milk is plentiful.   It is a time when planting is the main focus and birth and new life is plentiful. I am taking this time to continue to put energy into my new practice to nurture it with the ideas and sustenance I have been receiving.  It will take time and hard work but it will pay off eventually. I am also taking this time to nurture my new relationship with my son (since we are fully moving to an adult relationship - exciting and scary at the same time).

Beltane is a time of Expression - it is time to express your intentions.  You have planned and created and now it is time to really work on your intentions.  This year I am seeing the possibilities of my new practice/career and need to keep working on it to make it thrive. My Seeds of Intent 1.  To become more physically, mentally and emotionally healthy. *  I have been eating a bit better and am focusing on many things such as allergy shots so I can breathe better and also some female issues that have to be dealt with.  After that, I will be working on my insulin and glucose issues. 2.  To focus on helping my son into adulthood and being present with him and understanding of his limitations and abilities. * He is going to be working away from home during the summer which is going to be my first big step in letting him try life on his own. 3.  To find a way to become a therapist in the direction in which the Goddess leads me. * I am sta...

The Seed Full Moon is a time for planting first crops, especially corn.  It is when you start to make things happen and the energy to start to create.  Seeds will be planted and creation will happen.  The seeds will start to sprout from this energy.  This is a good time in your personal life to really dig your heels in and start those projects you intended to start this year.  Today especially the energy is very powerful towards creativity and initiating the beginning of what you start.  We will also experience a total lunar eclipse which is exciting and often shows the beginning, ending or major change in relationships. My daughter just was placed in a group home several hours from home.  I feel there may be a really drastic change to our relationship because of the distance - I am not sure if it will be good or bad but she will be on her own much more and I will not be able to see her as often as roundtrip drive is basically an entire da...

Today, March 20th, is the first day of SPRING!!!! This is what is happening to my seeds of intent: 1.  To continue to become more physically, mentally and emotionally healthy. - I am nearly finished with my allergy shots and being able to feel good and more active and especially enjoy nature is really helping me become more physically, mentally and emotionally healthy.  Also my medications have now put me in the normal range for blood work and blood pressure! 2.  To continue to focus on helping my son into adulthood and being present with him and understanding of his limitations and abilities. - I have been prodding my son in the right direction but letting him make his own mistakes and understand the consequences of his actions both positive and negative.  He has been thriving and I am letting him make most of his own decisions.  3.  To find a way to become a therapist in the direction in which the Goddess leads me. - It is hard not to bec...

Today is the Full Storm Moon.  Storms are often brewing in the weather and in our lives.  This moon is at the end of February or in March and before the Vernal Equinox.  The weather is violently vacillating between winter and spring.  Often we are dealing with the same in our own emotional realm.  We are struggling between still being in our dark realm of self-reflection and starting to come out and be part of a community.  We struggle to make room for others in our plans or seeing how our plans affect others. This year I struggle with what I think my children should do (they are now adults) and letting them do what they choose to do so they can learn their own path and choices. It is frustrating when you watch others make bad choices, and not trying to rescue or enable them.  I need to continue to work internally on myself and externally on my new role is a parent of adult children.

So yesterday was he** for me.  My daughter (18 and living in a group home under the AB12 program - Extended foster care) a few days before had gone to a city about 115 miles from where she lives.  She had a ride down there but the ride ditched her.  The friend's parent she was staying with said time to go.  My daughter had no money, no ID or anything helpful.  This was only 5 days since the last time she got stranded (that time in my city which is only 45 min from her home) at 3am and I picked her up and took her back to her home. So what to do - I was so torn. One part of me was like - she needs to learn - she will have to fend for herself and maybe she will stop this BS.  Another part of me was thinking - well I want her to learn to trust in family so I should go. Another part of me was thinking I am enabling her but not letting her serve consequences for her actions. And yet another part of me knows the only way for her to get home now is to hitc...

Despite the high winds, I forced myself to walk a mile.  My mom had given me her old iphone and I am able to use it as an ipod touch.  I used the mapmywalk app and it was great.  Now I am hoping that helps motivate me to continue to walk.  tomorrow I am going to try for 1.5 miles - hopefully not as windy so my breathing isn't as bad. In other news, I am saddened that my daughter is not going to school regularly and doesn't seem to take it seriously. My son is doing pretty well, I am a bit worried that he is staying out so late but at least he goes to his college classes everyday and he is working. I am looking forward to taking a short vacation this weekend!