New Year's Resolution
Every year I do New Year's Resolutions and every year within days or weeks I fail. Then I beat myself up for not having stronger will power and though I promise myself that I can just restart, I somehow never get back to those resolutions. Every year I get more anxious that I will fail quickly which then gives me self-doubt which drives me to sabotage myself so I don't have to be anxious that I will fail.
My birthday is December 31, so it makes it even easier to fall into this repeated cycle. One year older, one year wiser - yup I should be able to do it THIS time. But then my anxiety cranks up, I can't fail this time, or I am a failure.
One year I planned on not making New Year's Resolutions so I wouldn't fall into my normal cycle, but by January 2nd, I felt I was "being lazy" and "making excuses" not to make New Year's Resolutions so I made them and then within a month "failed".
So this year is going to be different, I am going to make one New Year's Resolution that I can't fail and that is a real honest resolution.
I resolve that in 2017 I am going to be good to myself.
So what does this mean?
It means I will eat healthy, exercise, and do things good for my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical health.
It also means that if I make a mistake or "fall off the wagon" I have to be good to myself.
I cannot obsess about being a failure, or that I wasn't good to myself at that moment, instead I have to focus on being good to myself and realizing that everyone slips up, including me and berating myself is not being good to myself.
So basically I am resolving to forgive myself and continue being good to myself. The best part is if I do feel like a failure for a bit, I don't have to be upset for feeling that way and decide to be good to myself and let it go and keep working forward.
So here is to a good 2017 that I am good to myself.
My birthday is December 31, so it makes it even easier to fall into this repeated cycle. One year older, one year wiser - yup I should be able to do it THIS time. But then my anxiety cranks up, I can't fail this time, or I am a failure.
One year I planned on not making New Year's Resolutions so I wouldn't fall into my normal cycle, but by January 2nd, I felt I was "being lazy" and "making excuses" not to make New Year's Resolutions so I made them and then within a month "failed".
So this year is going to be different, I am going to make one New Year's Resolution that I can't fail and that is a real honest resolution.
I resolve that in 2017 I am going to be good to myself.
So what does this mean?
It means I will eat healthy, exercise, and do things good for my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical health.
It also means that if I make a mistake or "fall off the wagon" I have to be good to myself.
I cannot obsess about being a failure, or that I wasn't good to myself at that moment, instead I have to focus on being good to myself and realizing that everyone slips up, including me and berating myself is not being good to myself.
So basically I am resolving to forgive myself and continue being good to myself. The best part is if I do feel like a failure for a bit, I don't have to be upset for feeling that way and decide to be good to myself and let it go and keep working forward.
So here is to a good 2017 that I am good to myself.
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